Thank you so very much for visiting my website. Please look around. I pray you will be encouraged, uplifted and motivated to be all you can be for Christ Jesus, the risen Lord.
I am blessed to be married to my best friend since 1995. It was my second marriage after divorce ended an 8-year, childless marriage. I retired in 2012 after 30 years in the Criminal Justice and Social Services field.
I value diligence, working my way through college as a waitress, liquor store clerk and Cutco Cutlery sales girl (that was the highlight of my life). Yet, I still have those knives! Bachelor’s degree in hand, I worked full-time, returning to graduate school in my early 40’s earning a Master of Arts in Business Management. Goals alone are good, but completed goals rock!
GRIEF: My personal life journey was crafted uniquely to develop me into the woman I am today. I can relate to grief and loss from my own personal adversity as a twenty-one-year-old, single birthmother of a daughter I placed for adoption. I understand the heartache of infertility, a subsequent failed adoption attempt and divorce. My daughter sought me out and we were reunited in 1999 when she was nineteen. Developing this adult relationship is a treasure I most value, has challenged us both emotionally and refined my character. Someday I’ll write the details. God truly heals the brokenhearted (Psalm 147:3) but for me, it’s been a process!
JESUS: Raised Catholic, I prayed as a child, attended mass and Catholic school, believing that my good behavior and being Catholic would get me into heaven. Turbulent teen years and my misbehavior left me feeling defeated. I couldn’t maintain good behavior or a clean conscience so I stopped attending mass. Then right before I became pregnant as a single, 21 year -old college student, I had a personal encounter with Jesus. I heard the gospel and accepted an invitation to be “born again” of water and spirit as John 3:5 describes. I received a new life, a new heart, and a new nature. I consider myself a non-denominational, charismatic Christian.
TRANSFORMATION: Jesus changed everything. Not instantly, but as a gradual process, I noticed my character being adjusted. My thinking began changing as I studied God’s word (Romans 12). I noticed my speech and actions transforming, causing me to be less self-centered. The transformation process is just that – a process that for me, took years. I’m still in transformation.
HEART CHANGE: The change God has effected within me that I most cherish is the tenderizing of my heart. I have become more compassionate than I was before. Those who knew how hardened and angry I was after my 1992 divorce can fully appreciate this alteration. Only God can change a person from the inside out. Mad at God, my ex, myself – I released it on family and at work. But the Lord helped me understand He was not mad at me, despite my broken marriage covenant. It took a few years, but God healed my broken heart. Because of my experience with Abba’s mercy and loving-kindness, I believe in emotional healing. I’ve been emotionally restored by God’s Word, His Spirit and the love of His people. I have experienced the power of an authentic Christian community.
AMBITION: I readily admit my personal ambition made earthly titles important to me. But they aren’t anymore. Once I experienced a measure of success, I realized it cannot satisfy. I knew my hard work only got me so far, but God’s grace and favor opened doors I never could. I met so many different kinds of people in my 30-year career as a Private Investigator, Child Abuse Investigator, Civil Process Server, State Probation Officer, Quality Assurance Manager, and Deputy Court Administrator. Social, educational and economic differences aside, everyone has something in common. We truly are more alike than unlike, we all carry burdens, feel joy, laugh, pay taxes and die one day.
LEGACY: Being a devoted lover of Jesus and one of His many true, servant followers is how I want to be remembered. Did I love well today? is a question I ask myself repeatedly in self-reflection. I don’t always like the answer, but it is on those days that I rely heavily on 1 John 1:9, knowing, “if we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” I am very grateful that God’s mercies are new every morning; that every day is a fresh start at being a better Christ-follower (Lamentations 3:23).
My goal for this season of life is to “know and believe the love that God has for me, for God is love” (1 John 4:16) and to express His nature through my blog posts, books and doors He opens to speak of Him.